Am I over Him?

At night, I lie down on the bed

staring at the ceiling above my head

Endless memories of the past

don’t go away that fast

In the room so dark with a blanket on

I stare at the walls, sometimes at my phone

Him, a flawed miracle, too lovely to look at

Hard to hold, harder to let go

I gave him all my heart, soul, time and thoughts

In turn I only asked for his ragged heart

It’s unbearable how the mind keeps going back to the past

I wanted to leave you better than how I found you

Unfortunately, you were at your worst

The darkness of the night is what I like the most

It keeps me guarded and secluded from the rest

I’m like the sea wave that keeps running back to the shore

To kiss the sand, again and again, asking for some more

You left like a bird leaving its home forever

To never come back, or leave back a single feather

In this dark lonely night i crave for togetherness

I’m a lover without love, yet I’m not loveless!

I wonder if I’m over him yet?

Then comes the answer, “not until my last breath!”